Happiness is when you can get through an entire day with the smile never leaving from your face, and negative thoughts don't pass through your head.
Friday was that day for me.
Mikey and I have really been enjoying eachother. And it's nice because the comfort level is there....has been there between us for awhile now since we started off as friends.
And....the passion is building...slowly but surely.
I received a text from HIM the other day asking if I'd like to meet up for coffee or a drink one day, just to catch up, etc etc.
Part of me wants to do this. Although everyone around me is telling me it's an awful idea and I'd be stupid to do it.
I'm off to Chi-town in a few weeks for business! My co-worker that was supposed to come with me got reassigned to another trip, so I'll be flying solo. A warm thanks to Jax for recommendations on where to go!
Sunday, January 27, 2008
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Tech Help Please
How in the heck do I blog from my phone? I have a SmartPhone.
But I cannot click on any of the buttons on the blogger page to post, add comments, etc.
Please Help
But I cannot click on any of the buttons on the blogger page to post, add comments, etc.
Please Help
Passion
It's been a hectic week. Work has me going crazy and my spare moments have been spent getting to know Mikey in a more "romantical" way.
He's great. Very loving, very attentive, affectionate, kind, sweet, etc etc. BUT I am still feeling that missing passion. I am waiting for it to just slap me in the face. which I guess is utterly unrealistic. I'm wondering why I have so many relationship issues. It's as if I want the fairy tale. I love to love, and be loved. Love that crazy butterflies in your stomach feeling. Want to be swept off my feet, be desired, and craved but I also want the passsion. Want a dirty text message during the day telling me he can't wait to have his lips on my ......(fill in the blank). Want to walk through the door, and be taken right there in the kitchen. Want an arguement where we yell and build up so much and release it in crazy make-up sex.
Is this too much to ask? Are there really relationships such as that out there?
maybe that's the way Mikey is. Maybe it's the initial shyness you have when you begin a more intimate relationship with someone. Maybe the barrier will be broken when he gets more comfortable and the passion will come flooding in.
When I was with HIM, we had passion from the beginning. It was crazy, it was so good, I felt like I was in a whirlwind. But HE was a very secure and confident man...wasn't shy from the get-go, so maybe that's why he was able to allow the passion to soar.
I'm passionate by nature. But i feel like I am holding some of that back with Mikey as to not scare him away. Am i doing us a big dis-service by refraining?
Thoughts much appreciated.
He's great. Very loving, very attentive, affectionate, kind, sweet, etc etc. BUT I am still feeling that missing passion. I am waiting for it to just slap me in the face. which I guess is utterly unrealistic. I'm wondering why I have so many relationship issues. It's as if I want the fairy tale. I love to love, and be loved. Love that crazy butterflies in your stomach feeling. Want to be swept off my feet, be desired, and craved but I also want the passsion. Want a dirty text message during the day telling me he can't wait to have his lips on my ......(fill in the blank). Want to walk through the door, and be taken right there in the kitchen. Want an arguement where we yell and build up so much and release it in crazy make-up sex.
Is this too much to ask? Are there really relationships such as that out there?
maybe that's the way Mikey is. Maybe it's the initial shyness you have when you begin a more intimate relationship with someone. Maybe the barrier will be broken when he gets more comfortable and the passion will come flooding in.
When I was with HIM, we had passion from the beginning. It was crazy, it was so good, I felt like I was in a whirlwind. But HE was a very secure and confident man...wasn't shy from the get-go, so maybe that's why he was able to allow the passion to soar.
I'm passionate by nature. But i feel like I am holding some of that back with Mikey as to not scare him away. Am i doing us a big dis-service by refraining?
Thoughts much appreciated.
Tuesday, January 1, 2008
Merry New Year
I hope everyone had a safe and fun way to ring in the New Year.
My lunch yesterday went well. I'm going to call my friend Mikey so I don't have to keep referring to him as my friend. Mikey and I had a great time together...and lunch turned into movies at my place, and movies turned into some wine, and some wine turned into take-out dinner, and that turned into ringing in 2008 together, which turned into a fantastically romantic night, and breakfast this morning. He originally had plans to be somewhere else in the city...but he said he didn't want to leave. And I am forever greatful that I didn't have to endure New Years Eve alone.
I definitely have some strong feelings there for Mikey. and it's reciprocated. Part of me wants to give this a shot...to see what we have to offer eachother romantically...because platonically it's there. I have 2 major concerns though. First..if it doesn't work, i would hate for us to lose such a strong friendship that we have both built up and relied on for so long. Second...everything between Mikey and I has been gentle, and tender. Slow and warm. I'm afraid that we would lack passion. Don't get me wrong, I love the tenderness...but I'm a passionate person...and need that in my life. I cannot ever imagine us having an arguement. Or ripping eachother's clothes off. Is passion something that's there from the start...or is it something that can build?
That my readers...is my first question of the year.
Now onto some much needed rest before I go back to the grind tomorrow.
Best wishes in 2008
My lunch yesterday went well. I'm going to call my friend Mikey so I don't have to keep referring to him as my friend. Mikey and I had a great time together...and lunch turned into movies at my place, and movies turned into some wine, and some wine turned into take-out dinner, and that turned into ringing in 2008 together, which turned into a fantastically romantic night, and breakfast this morning. He originally had plans to be somewhere else in the city...but he said he didn't want to leave. And I am forever greatful that I didn't have to endure New Years Eve alone.
I definitely have some strong feelings there for Mikey. and it's reciprocated. Part of me wants to give this a shot...to see what we have to offer eachother romantically...because platonically it's there. I have 2 major concerns though. First..if it doesn't work, i would hate for us to lose such a strong friendship that we have both built up and relied on for so long. Second...everything between Mikey and I has been gentle, and tender. Slow and warm. I'm afraid that we would lack passion. Don't get me wrong, I love the tenderness...but I'm a passionate person...and need that in my life. I cannot ever imagine us having an arguement. Or ripping eachother's clothes off. Is passion something that's there from the start...or is it something that can build?
That my readers...is my first question of the year.
Now onto some much needed rest before I go back to the grind tomorrow.
Best wishes in 2008
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