I know I've been MIA. I fled to the only source of comfort I know...my mom's. She's great. Anytime we have a problem, or come to her, she just takes us in, showers us with love and affection and if we want to talk about it, fine, if not, that's cool too. I didn't talk about anything, I don't want to yet with anyone I know. Not until I figure things out. So all my virtual friends out there are my outlet, and I thank-you.
I still haven't spoken to HIM yet. We are scheduled to meet today. Tonight after work. At a neutral location ofcourse. I'm going to hear him out, and try to get my questions answered. I promise to report back tomorrow on how it all goes.
The STD testing was really rough. I get the results tomorrow. and let me tell you, if anything comes back out of the ordinary, I'll probably get locked up from the damage I am going to cause to a certain someone. I may need to be bailed out. lol
anyway, I've gotten a new hair-do, and I've splurged on a new wardrobe. My confidence needs to stay up, regardless of what he is going to tell me today. I know this is totally immature, and all you women out there can probably relate. But tonight I am going to be wearing the new drop dead sexy heels, and outfit I bought. I want him to feel like shit so he knows what he is missing.
Again, before you comment on how immature that is, I already know. It's just something I have to do...for me!
A special thanks to Saidy and Sophie. If only my girlfriends are as comforting and non-judgemental as you have been. =)
2 comments:
gosh i was worried you went off and stabbed him in the eyeball and got locked up or something. i know im overly dramatic but shit when you are only virtual friends ANYTHING could happen and nobody would update us cause this is supposed to be anonymous!! anyhoo, i hope he eats his heart out. and no matter what you decide (you might take him back, and that's still okay) just forget about your heart - its tainted. follow your GUT - ITS ALMOST ALWAYS RIGHT
:-) thanks!
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